So here’s a writing prompt I don’t remember doing. Maybe I have, maybe I haven’t. My memory is a bit crappy these days. I’ve done a few of Fandango’s prompts, but I’m not sure I’ve done his One Word Challenge. Either way, I’m doing it today. And his one word for the day is (in case you didn’t guess from the title) introspective. — Note: I had a blonde moment and even though I wrote introspective, I looked up introspection… and wrote the blog post about that word. (probably because of the video in the next paragraph) Close enough, right? I’m not writing a whole new blog post. So… sorry!
Now, I’m figuring that it’s a “challenge” because we’re supposed to write poetry or prose based on that word, but my poetry and prose days are long gone. Locked away behind my psych meds and the key is lost to the ages. I mean, I could probably bang out something but it would be… rubbish. The muse just doesn’t catch me like it once did, and I’m a little sad about that. *sigh* Anyway, introspective. (I keep getting that old Schoolhouse Rock song, Interjection! song in my head whenever I say that word.)
So, whenever I do a one word post, I have to put up the definition of the word, because not everyone will know the definition. Some people think they know, but… yeah. So here’s what introspection means, from the Merriam Webster dictionary : a reflective looking inward : an examination of one’s own thoughts and feelings. Later edit: introspective is defined as (Google definition): characterized by or given to introspection. So my little faux pas wasn’t too far off. ^_^ back to the original blog post… And a little inward contemplation goes a long way. I think the whole human race should stop every once in a while and ask themselves, “Why did I say that?” or “Why am I acting this way?” because way too many people say things and act without thought — myself included. But of course, we humans are hard-wired to act first and think later. It takes time and practice to overcome that, which is why we have things like schools, religion, psychology, and meditation. I mean think first, act later and other social mores are something that have to be taught and learned. Just like language. That’s a fact.
Anyway, as I said, a little introspection goes a long way. I get to wandering inside my head every once in a while because I ain’t got nowhere else to go these days. But too much introspection leads to navel-gazing, and doesn’t do anyone any good. Navel-gazing, dear reader is defined thusly (again Merriam-Webster): useless or excessive self-contemplation. Or in other words (Google definition: self-indulgent or excessive contemplation of oneself or a single issue, at the expense of a wider view. And let me tell you this, there’s a whole lot of navel-gazing going on in this here world. Way too many people concerned with themselves and how everything will affect them that they’re no longer concerned about the world and the other world inhabitants. It’s all: Me – how will this affect me? Or even, How did I make this happen? and What can I do to change this? I know, I used to be a navel-gazer, and it wasn’t a pretty picture. I was lucky, I just kind of (figuratively) looked up one day and noticed the world around me and how everything is connected. Snapped me right out of it.
Being an ex-navel-gazer is one of the reasons why I vehemently oppose Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) for myself because CBT encourages introspection and asking “What can I do to change my circumstances?” and I don’t want to go down that rabbit hole again. I’m not against introspection in and of itself — or CBT, so don’t get your panties in a twist, if it works for you, go for it — I just don’t want to dive too deeply into my own thoughts because that way lies dragons, dear reader. And I think that I’ve fought enough imaginary dragons in my lifetime. I’m old now, and need a rest. I’ll leave the uncharted alone and retire to my well-medicated sandy shores, thanks much.